Peace be upon you.
Out of boredom.
[Attraction]
Are you a flirtatious person: Duh not. Eew.
Physically, what immediately draws you to the opposite sex?: The smile. Strong hands.
Personality-wise, what immediately draws you to the opposite sex?: Lameness.
Is their social status important?: haha. Not that.
Does it matter if they are involved in activities like sports or music?: Nope. But its best of they play the guitar!
Have you ever gotten butterflies because you liked someone so much?: Once.
[First Date]
For a first date, would you rather go out alone or out with friends?: With frens. Its less stressful.
Go to a place where you can talk or Go to a place where you can have fun?: Both i guess?
To you, is feeling important on the first date?: Yeah. It makes or breaks the 2nd date.
What is one place you wouldnt want to go to for a first date?: His house. Or mine. haha.
Have you ever been on a blind date?: Nope.
Do you kiss on the first date?: Neh. Dats quite. Erm.
[Love]
Have you ever been in love?: Yes. Who hasnt?
How do you know if you r in love?: When a day without him feels like a month.
Have you told someone that you loved them when you really didnt?: Yes. Sadly.
Is having love in your life important?: yeah. Love for God, for family, for frens. etc.
Do you think you are or will be good at expressing love?: I have no idea.
Do you think it's true that we all have one soulmate in our life?: yeah. jodoh they call it.
[Upsets]
Have you ever liked/loved someone and never had that feeling returned?: haha. yup.
Have you ever asked the opposite sex out and been turned down?: Never. Dun haf the guts.
Have you ever been dumped?: yesh. By this guy frm tanglin sec. Tsk. Hate u hairi!
Have you ever been set up as a joke?: No.
Have you ever dated someone because you felt bad about turning them down?: yah. Sorry.
Have you ever had your heart broken?: yes.. duh..
[Present]
Are u in a relationship now?: I have no idea.
Do u have a liking fer someone now?: yeah. ahakz.
Does that person know that u like him/her?: I have no idea.
Do u wish to go in a relationship with him/her?: Haha. Yes, of course. But not now lah. No time.
Love,
53 more minutes.
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Peace be upon you.
5 hours to go.
Yippe.
So far, got 11 bday wishes.
Recent-est one was by Lizzy, my new found emo fren.
Currently. talkin shit with her online.
The longest conversation in 4 years of schooling together.
Who says music cant get you places?
Haha.
Ashrithaa, Claire and Bulimic Rosie are looking for HMV.
Hopefully they managed to find the Transplants Cd.
Or The Used.
Or Dashboard.
Yay.
Love,
counting down..
5 hours to go.
Yippe.
So far, got 11 bday wishes.
Recent-est one was by Lizzy, my new found emo fren.
Currently. talkin shit with her online.
The longest conversation in 4 years of schooling together.
Who says music cant get you places?
Haha.
Ashrithaa, Claire and Bulimic Rosie are looking for HMV.
Hopefully they managed to find the Transplants Cd.
Or The Used.
Or Dashboard.
Yay.
Love,
counting down..
Peace be upon you.
woohoo.
Currently playing bushgame.
waha.
10 hrs 35 mins more to my sweet sixteen.
Love,
Emo freak.
woohoo.
Currently playing bushgame.
waha.
10 hrs 35 mins more to my sweet sixteen.
Love,
Emo freak.
Silence ruptured the air once more. A heavy fog rested on each mind, swirling thoughts all mixed up in an entanglement of sorts. Darkness enveloped, a heavy blanket creating a heavy burden in the throne of the heart. Blinded. The minds are all blinded. Their hands groped desperately, trying to grasp the tiniest bit of hope. But no. All they feel is a neverending emptiness. An abyss which sucked them into the void. Feeling helpless and heavy. Once and again, a glitter of light bounced off their faces, reflections of the tears they shed. Before these tears could touch the ground, before the tears could give a ray of light in the hearts of the men, a waiting Sin would appear and devour on the tear. Gone. Darkness still prevails. And in the hearts of these men, in their minds, there will never be an end to the Sins that await.
I am bored. Bored. Bored.
The paragraph above doesnt even make any sense!
Sheesh.
Love,
So boooooored!!
Friday, July 30, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Today's such a lame-ass day.
When i got the Mock Exam english paper.
Which was held after school.
I wrote my name.
My class.
Etcetras.
And before i could get to the first question.
I fell asleep.
As in seriously fell asleep.
Dreamt about someone.
haha.
Luckily my friend threw an eraser at me.
Or i would have surely failed.
Haha.
Im just so tired.
Made friends with this low-IQ guy who works at Coffeebean Jp.
His name is David.
He looks cute for a low-IQ person.
And very, very friendly.
Though i could not understand what he was trying to say.
My fren went "ya.. oh.. haha.. yah lah".
That was funny.
On the bus home.
This Shuqun sec 2 ahbeng pervert.
Was trying to snap a picture of my friend Mel.
He's gross i tell you.
So grotesquely fat.
And fugly.
AND he's an ahbeng.
Eew.
Oh. My birthday's this Sunday.
Yay.
Im sixteen at last.
Gosh.
Dont think i'll get any Chucks though.
Booohooohooo.
Argh.
I am so irritated by the fact my blog is musicless.
Sheesh.
Anyway, Lizzy.
Snubbed me when i said goodbye huh.
Tsk3.
Im so gonna murder you for that.
Im blabbering nonsense.
Haha.
Typical.
Anyway, i'm in a state of missing someone.
A day of not meeting feels like a week.
Haha.
Gosh. Ive gone bonkers.
Love,
So tired i could die.
Today's such a lame-ass day.
When i got the Mock Exam english paper.
Which was held after school.
I wrote my name.
My class.
Etcetras.
And before i could get to the first question.
I fell asleep.
As in seriously fell asleep.
Dreamt about someone.
haha.
Luckily my friend threw an eraser at me.
Or i would have surely failed.
Haha.
Im just so tired.
Made friends with this low-IQ guy who works at Coffeebean Jp.
His name is David.
He looks cute for a low-IQ person.
And very, very friendly.
Though i could not understand what he was trying to say.
My fren went "ya.. oh.. haha.. yah lah".
That was funny.
On the bus home.
This Shuqun sec 2 ahbeng pervert.
Was trying to snap a picture of my friend Mel.
He's gross i tell you.
So grotesquely fat.
And fugly.
AND he's an ahbeng.
Eew.
Oh. My birthday's this Sunday.
Yay.
Im sixteen at last.
Gosh.
Dont think i'll get any Chucks though.
Booohooohooo.
Argh.
I am so irritated by the fact my blog is musicless.
Sheesh.
Anyway, Lizzy.
Snubbed me when i said goodbye huh.
Tsk3.
Im so gonna murder you for that.
Im blabbering nonsense.
Haha.
Typical.
Anyway, i'm in a state of missing someone.
A day of not meeting feels like a week.
Haha.
Gosh. Ive gone bonkers.
Love,
So tired i could die.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Ugh. Cant get my hands on enough photos lah guys. Haha! I juz post some etcetras ya? Im bored like mad. Anyway, i love Aqmal N! Weee~ *drOoLs*
THe etCetRas!
Love,
Aqmal N rocks!!
Ugh. Cant get my hands on enough photos lah guys. Haha! I juz post some etcetras ya? Im bored like mad. Anyway, i love Aqmal N! Weee~ *drOoLs*
THe etCetRas!
Love,
Aqmal N rocks!!
Monday, July 26, 2004
Apologies for the late entries.
Ah. Sorry no photos yeah.
Been real busy with school.
And friends.
And him. Heh.
Anyway, Life's just fine right now.
Smooth sailing.
Im actually beginning to think i look ok.
Haha!
The power of self-confidence.
Cheongsams.
Kebayas.
And compliments.
Thanks people!
You make my day.
Especially you.
haha.
I dunnoe.
Im like treading on clouds right now.
The scenery's beautiful up here.
But there's always a danger of falling.
Enjoy and treasure every second then.
Oh well.
Anyway,
I have learnt to let go of the past.
Not to dwell and reminisce.
Or try to rake up buried feelings.
I love you, Rajah and Claire.
Thanks alot for all your alien crap.
And you, Rambutan head.
Thanks for never failing to make my day.
Not to forget all my other friends.
Thanks for making me smile.
Gawd.
I sound like im dying tomorrow!
Haha.
Ok better get going then.
Love,
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Woohoo! Today is racial harmony day! I wore this Cheongsam to school, and i didnt realize the slit at the side was quite high. Soooo.. i went around the school happily thinking that im not over-exposed. But but but, upon reaching the bus stop on the way to higher mother tounge (after skool), i caught 6 ahpeks/pakciks staring at my legs. And thus, i saronged myself with a paper bag and wore a pair of long black pants underneath as soon as i got to the nearest toilet. Ah. So traumatising. So disgusting. Eew.
So, pictures will be up soon. Kk.. All pictures... The councillor investiture, the racial harmony day and the councillor dinner approaching this saturday. I'll most probably put them up by next monday, latest. Promise.
So anyway, after highermother tounge, i went to meet Faris at Science Centre (McDs) and did an SJI maths paper. I finished it! woohoo! anyway, thats not the point. The point is, my feet were dropping off. Stupid heels. Stupid stupid heels. Thats like the 11th time i ever wore heels in my whole life! haha. Haish~
Love,
Photooooos!!!
Woohoo! Today is racial harmony day! I wore this Cheongsam to school, and i didnt realize the slit at the side was quite high. Soooo.. i went around the school happily thinking that im not over-exposed. But but but, upon reaching the bus stop on the way to higher mother tounge (after skool), i caught 6 ahpeks/pakciks staring at my legs. And thus, i saronged myself with a paper bag and wore a pair of long black pants underneath as soon as i got to the nearest toilet. Ah. So traumatising. So disgusting. Eew.
So, pictures will be up soon. Kk.. All pictures... The councillor investiture, the racial harmony day and the councillor dinner approaching this saturday. I'll most probably put them up by next monday, latest. Promise.
So anyway, after highermother tounge, i went to meet Faris at Science Centre (McDs) and did an SJI maths paper. I finished it! woohoo! anyway, thats not the point. The point is, my feet were dropping off. Stupid heels. Stupid stupid heels. Thats like the 11th time i ever wore heels in my whole life! haha. Haish~
Love,
Photooooos!!!
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Never be replaced - 1st Ladi
Dedicated to someone...
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)
From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feelings of your kisses
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me think that I could live my life like this everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Thet everyday that I spend with you
I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)
Woohoo. This is so not emocore/hardcore/punkrock/ska. But i loike! haha. So sweet man the lyrics. Ahaks. Hey sorri the pics still arent up. Unreliable source ah. ahakz. Tomorrowis racial harmony day and im wearing a cheongsam. haha. hope i dun look funny.
Love,
Never be replaced.
Never be replaced - 1st Ladi
Dedicated to someone...
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)
From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to the feelings of your kisses
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me think that I could live my life like this everyday
There's never been a doubt in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Thet everyday that I spend with you
I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to, boy I think that you should know
All the love we've made will never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end (the end) of time (of time)
Woohoo. This is so not emocore/hardcore/punkrock/ska. But i loike! haha. So sweet man the lyrics. Ahaks. Hey sorri the pics still arent up. Unreliable source ah. ahakz. Tomorrowis racial harmony day and im wearing a cheongsam. haha. hope i dun look funny.
Love,
Never be replaced.
Monday, July 19, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Ey cool! I can change colors. hahha! anyway, i actually refused to blog until i had photos of the councillor investiture. But sadly, i couldnt get the photos on time, and my hand just itch to blog. (My hand's really itchy, somehow i got 5 mosquito bites on my right hand. Dammit.) Argh.
Anyway, just a short blog to remind you all that im still alive.
Just got off the phone with my best friend. I do not know what to make of the conversation. Nak kate cold, tak cold. Nak kate welcomed, macam tak. Nak kate happy, macam tak. Nak kate sad pon tak.. Hmm...
Anyway, Faris and i went to J.E. library after my higher mother tounge cuz i had to return some books and intended to borrow some malay books. Den all the people in the world saw me and him. Argh. The councillors, my neighbour, the Na/Nt boys, my mom's customers, you name it, they saw us. Luckily my mom knows that i go out with him. As in go out in the non-dating sense. Haha.
My bday is coming in 12 more days. In case you forgot my wishlist, ts my greatest pleasure to remind you...
1) Chucks! Any chucks!
2) Ok fine, a black leather chucks!
3) Any gibSon Voodoo Juju guitar.
4) A digicam.
5) An Mp3 player.
6) An emo guy to call my own.
7) To be specific, a smart, funny, berwawasan emo guy to call my own.
So how? Any takers to supply with me with this presents?
Love,
Pictures oh pictures. Where art thou?
Ey cool! I can change colors. hahha! anyway, i actually refused to blog until i had photos of the councillor investiture. But sadly, i couldnt get the photos on time, and my hand just itch to blog. (My hand's really itchy, somehow i got 5 mosquito bites on my right hand. Dammit.) Argh.
Anyway, just a short blog to remind you all that im still alive.
Just got off the phone with my best friend. I do not know what to make of the conversation. Nak kate cold, tak cold. Nak kate welcomed, macam tak. Nak kate happy, macam tak. Nak kate sad pon tak.. Hmm...
Anyway, Faris and i went to J.E. library after my higher mother tounge cuz i had to return some books and intended to borrow some malay books. Den all the people in the world saw me and him. Argh. The councillors, my neighbour, the Na/Nt boys, my mom's customers, you name it, they saw us. Luckily my mom knows that i go out with him. As in go out in the non-dating sense. Haha.
My bday is coming in 12 more days. In case you forgot my wishlist, ts my greatest pleasure to remind you...
1) Chucks! Any chucks!
2) Ok fine, a black leather chucks!
3) Any gibSon Voodoo Juju guitar.
4) A digicam.
5) An Mp3 player.
6) An emo guy to call my own.
7) To be specific, a smart, funny, berwawasan emo guy to call my own.
So how? Any takers to supply with me with this presents?
Love,
Pictures oh pictures. Where art thou?
Friday, July 16, 2004
Peace be upon you.
I am pooped!
First of all, to those who live around my vicinity, i'd just like to make an announcement that the Daging Uncle (Beside my mom's shop) has just passed away this evening. Lets all read out our Al-Fatihah's for him. Amin.
I'd school till like 8 today, having our last minute Council Investiture. Anyway, like i said aeons ago, the Sec 4s (including me of course) have been asked to put up a dance performance. So when we had our last practice just now, i was so proud of us! Everyone who saw us practice was like "waaah".. "nice sia!".. Ok, im being shameless, cuz i was the one who said that. haha. Oh and our respected Council President, Alisha Gill, fractured/sprained her knee just now. When her mom took her home, some of us were like crying and i, for the first time ever, felt like crying too. Hah. Emotional~ Anyway, it was a pity, cuz all the Sec 4 councillors have been practicing real hard, and she (Alisha) was so enthusiastic. Haiz. Hope she manages to come tomorrow.
Anyway, i cant wait for tomorrow. The day where we display our dance, where we hang up our ties and responsibilities, and also the day im going out with Faris the whole day to study/talk (niway, my mom knows bout tis. cool huh. i love my mum.). Haha. I cant wait!
Love,
I am sooo tired.
I am pooped!
First of all, to those who live around my vicinity, i'd just like to make an announcement that the Daging Uncle (Beside my mom's shop) has just passed away this evening. Lets all read out our Al-Fatihah's for him. Amin.
I'd school till like 8 today, having our last minute Council Investiture. Anyway, like i said aeons ago, the Sec 4s (including me of course) have been asked to put up a dance performance. So when we had our last practice just now, i was so proud of us! Everyone who saw us practice was like "waaah".. "nice sia!".. Ok, im being shameless, cuz i was the one who said that. haha. Oh and our respected Council President, Alisha Gill, fractured/sprained her knee just now. When her mom took her home, some of us were like crying and i, for the first time ever, felt like crying too. Hah. Emotional~ Anyway, it was a pity, cuz all the Sec 4 councillors have been practicing real hard, and she (Alisha) was so enthusiastic. Haiz. Hope she manages to come tomorrow.
Anyway, i cant wait for tomorrow. The day where we display our dance, where we hang up our ties and responsibilities, and also the day im going out with Faris the whole day to study/talk (niway, my mom knows bout tis. cool huh. i love my mum.). Haha. I cant wait!
Love,
I am sooo tired.
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Peace be upon you.
God.
I am so damn tired these days, doing last minute rehearsals for the Councillor's Investiture coming up this Saturday. Yeah. No more ties, no more tucking in shirts, no more not-bringing-hp-cuz-scared-of-terrence, no more acting good and best of all, no more being pointed out cuz im a councillor. Feeweet! Ok, i admit im a bad councillor. Waha.
Oh yesterday was superb! After the Prelim Oral Examinations, i went out to meet with Faris at coffeebean so that we could study together. Then, after spending five minutes at coffebean, we migrated to Jurong East Library at Cafe Gallile and he treated me to a cup of Mocha Ice Blend. So, we studied and studied and studied till around 7, and realised that we were hungry. So, we migrated yet again to Science Centre's Macdonalds next door and ate there while talking/studying. Then, we walked to the bus stop, and he sang "Sephia".. OH my GOd. I love his voice. Drools... haha. Then we got on the bus and headed home.
Oh btw, Happy 1 year anniversary Sis!!
Love,
So tired~
God.
I am so damn tired these days, doing last minute rehearsals for the Councillor's Investiture coming up this Saturday. Yeah. No more ties, no more tucking in shirts, no more not-bringing-hp-cuz-scared-of-terrence, no more acting good and best of all, no more being pointed out cuz im a councillor. Feeweet! Ok, i admit im a bad councillor. Waha.
Oh yesterday was superb! After the Prelim Oral Examinations, i went out to meet with Faris at coffeebean so that we could study together. Then, after spending five minutes at coffebean, we migrated to Jurong East Library at Cafe Gallile and he treated me to a cup of Mocha Ice Blend. So, we studied and studied and studied till around 7, and realised that we were hungry. So, we migrated yet again to Science Centre's Macdonalds next door and ate there while talking/studying. Then, we walked to the bus stop, and he sang "Sephia".. OH my GOd. I love his voice. Drools... haha. Then we got on the bus and headed home.
Oh btw, Happy 1 year anniversary Sis!!
Love,
So tired~
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Peace be upon you.
I shall make it a point to blog in almost perfect English in order to improve my English usage. Oh and not to forget, using humongous words from the thesaurus so as to widen my vocab. Wooh. Wat an uphill task, but still, one must make sacrifices in order to attain one's dreams. haha.
Anyway, I would like to blog today about the Malay community. As you loyal readers know (Although there are like none of you), I am a girl who is constantly obsessed with the status of my very own Malay community. I am constantly whining to my Chinese and Indian friends on how i sometimes feel proud of my own race, but am constantly let down by it at the same time. (This, of course includes the fact that i too sometimes let my race down.)
As we all know (i take it that all of you do know, Malays have a right to a free education all the way to University because we are the indegenious people of this country. In some parliamentary debates that has occured, some of the ministers have brought up the point that Singapore is a multi-racial country and that every race has the right to be treated equally. And thus, why are Malays given the rights to a free education when the Chinese, the Indians and the Etcetras have to pay a monthly school fee of about eighty bucks for a government school? This question has been posed to my Social Studies class not long ago,(i guess directed to me, because i am the only Malay student in my class.) by my teacher. I would have loved to scream out, "Because this is the Malay land you people are stepping on! Not happy isit we have free education?". But sadly, i didnt have the guts to do so because:
1) I am surrounded by 35 Chinese students, 4 Indian students and 1 extra China gerl (I will write my distaste on China workers in the bus early in the morning on another entry) who can proceed to beat me up anytime.
2) I feel bad that i dont have to pay the fees while others who deserve a free education more then me is not given the opportunity.
Yes, sometimes i feel like i do not deserve to get free education. This is due to the fact that i am a lazy student who doesnt always hand up her work on time and scores just under average in class. Compared to the Chinese/Indians students in class (who i think lives only by education alone), i am like a devil in disguise.
After that fateful day in which the teacher, Mrs Png, threw out that statement to the public, i have decided not to sleep in class anymore and to try handing in my assignments on time (although, not her works, because i hate social studies and cant be bothered). So far, i've done myself proud. And then my thoughts began to wonder to the rest of the Malay community.
Getting a free education is by far a priviledge that we should treasure. Anytime, the government may choose to put a stop to it on the grounds that Singapore is a multi-racial country. In the meantime, are the Malays really worth the investment? If you think about it, how much of the Malays are actually in top notch JCs, like National, Raffles, Hwa Chong etc? And think again, which institutes do the Malays usually end up at?
I am not being a wet blanket here, but i seriously doubt that the free education system will last long. Why should the government invest in us Malays when in the end only a portion of us really work hard to actually envelop the fact that our education is free and that we should make full use of it. I am not saying that i am the perfect example of a student who does this, because i'm far from that. I can only dream of reaching that position.
Like i mentioned earlier, free education is a priviledge which can be retreated anytime. The government must have pumped up millions of dollars over the years to give us Malays free education. Why dont we prove to them that their investment is worth every cent, that the indigenous people of this land can and will make this country proud?
Shoutouts to all Malays! Lets improve our standard of living and start focusing on our future, the future of our soon-to-be children and their children. Lets leave all the minah-ism and mat-ism behind and spend the time used learning how to taper jeans the right way, the best club to have ladies night at, shaking hands to melody-less techno beats or finding the best slut to have premarital intercourse with and improve ourselves instead. Lets make sure that the Government won't even think about deleting the "Malays get a free education" thingie.
P.S. haha. I dont think i got my point across correctly. Anyway, i want to mention that i have no grudge against ite people, just as long as you're giving your best. So please try not to bombard me with anti-fadhilah letters if you're from ite. Because chances are, if you're not a mat/minah, i loike you.
P.P.S. Oh, i am planning to reopen my first blog to upload all my Malay write-ups. This is because my Malay language standard has been slipping. Noooooooo...
Love,
So dizzy man writing in the middle of the night
I shall make it a point to blog in almost perfect English in order to improve my English usage. Oh and not to forget, using humongous words from the thesaurus so as to widen my vocab. Wooh. Wat an uphill task, but still, one must make sacrifices in order to attain one's dreams. haha.
Anyway, I would like to blog today about the Malay community. As you loyal readers know (Although there are like none of you), I am a girl who is constantly obsessed with the status of my very own Malay community. I am constantly whining to my Chinese and Indian friends on how i sometimes feel proud of my own race, but am constantly let down by it at the same time. (This, of course includes the fact that i too sometimes let my race down.)
As we all know (i take it that all of you do know, Malays have a right to a free education all the way to University because we are the indegenious people of this country. In some parliamentary debates that has occured, some of the ministers have brought up the point that Singapore is a multi-racial country and that every race has the right to be treated equally. And thus, why are Malays given the rights to a free education when the Chinese, the Indians and the Etcetras have to pay a monthly school fee of about eighty bucks for a government school? This question has been posed to my Social Studies class not long ago,(i guess directed to me, because i am the only Malay student in my class.) by my teacher. I would have loved to scream out, "Because this is the Malay land you people are stepping on! Not happy isit we have free education?". But sadly, i didnt have the guts to do so because:
1) I am surrounded by 35 Chinese students, 4 Indian students and 1 extra China gerl (I will write my distaste on China workers in the bus early in the morning on another entry) who can proceed to beat me up anytime.
2) I feel bad that i dont have to pay the fees while others who deserve a free education more then me is not given the opportunity.
Yes, sometimes i feel like i do not deserve to get free education. This is due to the fact that i am a lazy student who doesnt always hand up her work on time and scores just under average in class. Compared to the Chinese/Indians students in class (who i think lives only by education alone), i am like a devil in disguise.
After that fateful day in which the teacher, Mrs Png, threw out that statement to the public, i have decided not to sleep in class anymore and to try handing in my assignments on time (although, not her works, because i hate social studies and cant be bothered). So far, i've done myself proud. And then my thoughts began to wonder to the rest of the Malay community.
Getting a free education is by far a priviledge that we should treasure. Anytime, the government may choose to put a stop to it on the grounds that Singapore is a multi-racial country. In the meantime, are the Malays really worth the investment? If you think about it, how much of the Malays are actually in top notch JCs, like National, Raffles, Hwa Chong etc? And think again, which institutes do the Malays usually end up at?
I am not being a wet blanket here, but i seriously doubt that the free education system will last long. Why should the government invest in us Malays when in the end only a portion of us really work hard to actually envelop the fact that our education is free and that we should make full use of it. I am not saying that i am the perfect example of a student who does this, because i'm far from that. I can only dream of reaching that position.
Like i mentioned earlier, free education is a priviledge which can be retreated anytime. The government must have pumped up millions of dollars over the years to give us Malays free education. Why dont we prove to them that their investment is worth every cent, that the indigenous people of this land can and will make this country proud?
Shoutouts to all Malays! Lets improve our standard of living and start focusing on our future, the future of our soon-to-be children and their children. Lets leave all the minah-ism and mat-ism behind and spend the time used learning how to taper jeans the right way, the best club to have ladies night at, shaking hands to melody-less techno beats or finding the best slut to have premarital intercourse with and improve ourselves instead. Lets make sure that the Government won't even think about deleting the "Malays get a free education" thingie.
P.S. haha. I dont think i got my point across correctly. Anyway, i want to mention that i have no grudge against ite people, just as long as you're giving your best. So please try not to bombard me with anti-fadhilah letters if you're from ite. Because chances are, if you're not a mat/minah, i loike you.
P.P.S. Oh, i am planning to reopen my first blog to upload all my Malay write-ups. This is because my Malay language standard has been slipping. Noooooooo...
Love,
So dizzy man writing in the middle of the night
Monday, July 12, 2004
Peace be upon you.
I am elated. I guess God is fair. After being scolded in the evening by Cikgu Khalidah on my horrible karangan (which, was a last minute work), i stumbled upon Alfian Saat's blog. Although it seems like he doesnt blog regularly, who cares? I found his blog!! Woohoo. I am elated.
Oh by the way, why is everyone falling sick?
Love,
Woooohooo!
I am elated. I guess God is fair. After being scolded in the evening by Cikgu Khalidah on my horrible karangan (which, was a last minute work), i stumbled upon Alfian Saat's blog. Although it seems like he doesnt blog regularly, who cares? I found his blog!! Woohoo. I am elated.
Oh by the way, why is everyone falling sick?
Love,
Woooohooo!
Sunday, July 11, 2004
Peace be upon you.
I'd loike to be thick-skinned today. Thus, im gonna declare that my birthday is on 1st August! yes, people. My birthday is approaching.
This is my perfect wishlist:
A pair of black leather unisex low-cut Chucks.
A pair of White/Red leather unisex hi-cut Chucks.
A Gibson Les Paul Voodoo in Juju color.
OR A Gibson SG Voodoo in Juju color.
A Sony Cyber-shot Digicam
A Creative Mp3 player 512 mb wit voice recorder.
Last of all.. an EmO guy to call my own.. mwahahaha!
Ok.. So if you have loads of cash and nothing to spend it on, please get these stuffs for me. haha!!
Pictures courtesy of www.converse.com, www.gibson.com, www.sony.com, www.creative.com & dashboard confessional.
Love,
Crosses her fingers...
I'd loike to be thick-skinned today. Thus, im gonna declare that my birthday is on 1st August! yes, people. My birthday is approaching.
This is my perfect wishlist:
A pair of black leather unisex low-cut Chucks.
A pair of White/Red leather unisex hi-cut Chucks.
A Gibson Les Paul Voodoo in Juju color.
OR A Gibson SG Voodoo in Juju color.
A Sony Cyber-shot Digicam
A Creative Mp3 player 512 mb wit voice recorder.
Last of all.. an EmO guy to call my own.. mwahahaha!
Ok.. So if you have loads of cash and nothing to spend it on, please get these stuffs for me. haha!!
Pictures courtesy of www.converse.com, www.gibson.com, www.sony.com, www.creative.com & dashboard confessional.
Love,
Crosses her fingers...
Saturday, July 10, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Wooh. I love this song although its loike pop-ish. Haha. Makes me wanna jump about and dance and it really suits my position. kerkerker.
Oh anyway, look at the bar below. The one with "done", "loading" stuff. I've updated it. Try to spot if your name is there. If not, i still love you, but cant write down ur name cuz too many names to write, but not enuff space. haha.
Love,
Accidentally in love
Wooh. I love this song although its loike pop-ish. Haha. Makes me wanna jump about and dance and it really suits my position. kerkerker.
Oh anyway, look at the bar below. The one with "done", "loading" stuff. I've updated it. Try to spot if your name is there. If not, i still love you, but cant write down ur name cuz too many names to write, but not enuff space. haha.
Love,
Accidentally in love
Thursday, July 08, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Ok ive finally got the pics up! So here it is: Be yourself Day pics.
Oh btw,
The gal in all black with a pink belt is Atikah Saad, my best friend. She's taken, so dun bother askin me for her number.
The gal in a black top and jeans is Shafiah. She's not taken as far as i noe. So if u wanna get to noe her, ask me. haha.
The gal in red and looks retarded is me, of course.
The gal in black with a studded belt is Fifi. I have no idea whatsoever if she is taken, and i dun hav her number. Aw. Sad. haha. But i can pass her ur msg if u want to.
The gal in white is Nadia, and the gal in blue is Salwa. I haf no means of contactin dem at all. Aww~ haha.
The guys upfront are Luqman and Hakim.
K u people can slobber at my frens while i rejoice in knowing that ive finally succeeded in putting up pics.
Love,
Weeee~
Ok ive finally got the pics up! So here it is: Be yourself Day pics.
Oh btw,
The gal in all black with a pink belt is Atikah Saad, my best friend. She's taken, so dun bother askin me for her number.
The gal in a black top and jeans is Shafiah. She's not taken as far as i noe. So if u wanna get to noe her, ask me. haha.
The gal in red and looks retarded is me, of course.
The gal in black with a studded belt is Fifi. I have no idea whatsoever if she is taken, and i dun hav her number. Aw. Sad. haha. But i can pass her ur msg if u want to.
The gal in white is Nadia, and the gal in blue is Salwa. I haf no means of contactin dem at all. Aww~ haha.
The guys upfront are Luqman and Hakim.
K u people can slobber at my frens while i rejoice in knowing that ive finally succeeded in putting up pics.
Love,
Weeee~
Peace be upon you.
Ah apparently the myshoutbox is out. Aghz. And i was so excited to see if she tagged. Dammit.
Today's beyourself day in my skool, and thus,when i got hold of my fren's digicam, it was "amek, amek, amek! Jangan tak amek!" waha. I'll be uploading the pics later at night when he passes them to me. Please expect 2 beautiful ladees (my best fren n fren) and a plain-jane(me). Waha. And not to mention the other beauuuutiful malay peepz of ma skool.
Its raining, and im sleepy. And my tagboard is out! Gosh.
Love,
*Yawns...
Ah apparently the myshoutbox is out. Aghz. And i was so excited to see if she tagged. Dammit.
Today's beyourself day in my skool, and thus,when i got hold of my fren's digicam, it was "amek, amek, amek! Jangan tak amek!" waha. I'll be uploading the pics later at night when he passes them to me. Please expect 2 beautiful ladees (my best fren n fren) and a plain-jane(me). Waha. And not to mention the other beauuuutiful malay peepz of ma skool.
Its raining, and im sleepy. And my tagboard is out! Gosh.
Love,
*Yawns...
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Today rocks. To think about it, nowadays, everyday seems to rock.
First of all, i learned, like crabstick, fishball is not made of fish. But flour. K i still dun beleive that, but my best fren swears on it. So. Yeah.
Oh and i met Faris again, at coffeebean, after my higher malay. Ok the weirdest thing just happend. I spent around 2 hours talking to a guy about studies. Woooh~ cant wait for the next time he's gonna teach me Chemistry and im gonna lecture him about the beauty of the Malay language.
Love,
All smiles..
Today rocks. To think about it, nowadays, everyday seems to rock.
First of all, i learned, like crabstick, fishball is not made of fish. But flour. K i still dun beleive that, but my best fren swears on it. So. Yeah.
Oh and i met Faris again, at coffeebean, after my higher malay. Ok the weirdest thing just happend. I spent around 2 hours talking to a guy about studies. Woooh~ cant wait for the next time he's gonna teach me Chemistry and im gonna lecture him about the beauty of the Malay language.
Love,
All smiles..
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
Peace be upon you.
Aight this is just a Malay sajak/poem ive written whilst stoning in my room, enjoying the cool night breeze..
Waha. Ok i guess that was crappy. But who cares. It just needs to sound chim and pompous. heh. Rite people?
Anyway, i just found out that my fren is in luv with her guy best fren. Dats so sad. Cuz i haf a feeling she will never have the courage to tell him as it might ruin their friendship. But then again, is it worth a shot? I mean, kan sakit hati kalau dier nmpk lelaki tu ngan pompuan lain? Then she'll kill herself for not telling him.
Love,
Inspiration strikes
Aight this is just a Malay sajak/poem ive written whilst stoning in my room, enjoying the cool night breeze..
Diriku
Bak sekuntum bunga
Terencat mekarnya
Kerna digenggam dedaunan.
Perasaanku
Bergelombak di samudera
Tiada arah, tiada tujuan
Kerna hilang petunjuknya.
Visiku
Hanya setakat pelupuk mata
Kegelapan menyelubungi sebelah pagar
Kerna kekabus menghindari mimpi.
Waha. Ok i guess that was crappy. But who cares. It just needs to sound chim and pompous. heh. Rite people?
Anyway, i just found out that my fren is in luv with her guy best fren. Dats so sad. Cuz i haf a feeling she will never have the courage to tell him as it might ruin their friendship. But then again, is it worth a shot? I mean, kan sakit hati kalau dier nmpk lelaki tu ngan pompuan lain? Then she'll kill herself for not telling him.
Love,
Inspiration strikes
Peace be upon you.
I rented ESPN's Tony Hawk's Gigantic Skatepark Tour Dvds today, and found myself lusting and loving a new man - Mike Vallely.
He's a punkrocker, a poet, a proskateboarder, a familyman, a businessman and the list seriously goes on and on. To read his bio, visit his website..
"Growing up, I was a daydreamer. For so long I lived in a world of my own imagination, and to some extent I still do. But I've always believed in following my dreams with action and creating new dreams along the way. That's how dreams become reality. If you can imagine it and you're willing to go out and put in the time, anything is possible." -Mike V.. (Phwoar, drools)
Haha! Oh and a miracle happened. The maths test was postponed to next week!! woohooo!!
Alhamdulillah... However, it was quite sad, cuz i stayed up til 2 yesterday studyin vectors and probability. Haish. And for the first time ever, i was quite sad when i ran out of TYS vectors questions to answer. Woooh. Haha.
Niway, i went to the library today to study, and on the way there, i saw this
makcik who was working as a door guard to the JE pathetic cinema. She was like concentrating reading a book, so i walked nearer, being the KPO i am. Every step i took, the melodious voice of the makcik became louder, and yet more soothing. She was reading the Quran, and was like really, really into it. I hope i can achieve that state in the future. Insyallah.
And yeah, Faris treating me coffeebean tomorrow after my hmt! woohoo. At this rate of him treating me, his daddy's gonna be bankrupt man. wahaha. Oh well. I tried to warn him. heh.
Love,
Floating on cloud nine
I rented ESPN's Tony Hawk's Gigantic Skatepark Tour Dvds today, and found myself lusting and loving a new man - Mike Vallely.
He's a punkrocker, a poet, a proskateboarder, a familyman, a businessman and the list seriously goes on and on. To read his bio, visit his website..
"Growing up, I was a daydreamer. For so long I lived in a world of my own imagination, and to some extent I still do. But I've always believed in following my dreams with action and creating new dreams along the way. That's how dreams become reality. If you can imagine it and you're willing to go out and put in the time, anything is possible." -Mike V.. (Phwoar, drools)
Haha! Oh and a miracle happened. The maths test was postponed to next week!! woohooo!!
Alhamdulillah... However, it was quite sad, cuz i stayed up til 2 yesterday studyin vectors and probability. Haish. And for the first time ever, i was quite sad when i ran out of TYS vectors questions to answer. Woooh. Haha.
Niway, i went to the library today to study, and on the way there, i saw this
makcik who was working as a door guard to the JE pathetic cinema. She was like concentrating reading a book, so i walked nearer, being the KPO i am. Every step i took, the melodious voice of the makcik became louder, and yet more soothing. She was reading the Quran, and was like really, really into it. I hope i can achieve that state in the future. Insyallah.
And yeah, Faris treating me coffeebean tomorrow after my hmt! woohoo. At this rate of him treating me, his daddy's gonna be bankrupt man. wahaha. Oh well. I tried to warn him. heh.
Love,
Floating on cloud nine
Monday, July 05, 2004
Peace be upon you.
My second entry of the day. I am BorEd. Wooh. Kewl.
I spent an hour and a half banging my head around, skanking amidst the gargantuan mess in my room. Spun thousands of songs from Rancid, Thursday, Tipe-X bla bla bla. Best part of the whole story : I have not studied for my Vectors/Probability test tomorrow. Ahh. Bismillahirahmanirahim.. Ya Allah, kasilah hamba mu ini pass test tu.. Amin. Heh.
Love,
I need a miracle.
My second entry of the day. I am BorEd. Wooh. Kewl.
I spent an hour and a half banging my head around, skanking amidst the gargantuan mess in my room. Spun thousands of songs from Rancid, Thursday, Tipe-X bla bla bla. Best part of the whole story : I have not studied for my Vectors/Probability test tomorrow. Ahh. Bismillahirahmanirahim.. Ya Allah, kasilah hamba mu ini pass test tu.. Amin. Heh.
Love,
I need a miracle.
Peace be upon you.
If i had bet 100 bucks for each match in Euro, i'd be bankrupt.
Noooo. I cant beleive Greece won. C.Ronaldo was like crying so much i juz feel like hugging and comfortin him. Oh u poor dear. But he does look cute crying. Hehe. Haiz. Oh and that farni idiot who ran across the field was lame. Wat the hell was he trying to prove? He made my Portugal Players lose concentration. Gawd. aaah. AND he wasnt even naked. AND he wasnt even funny. Tried to stick on the goalnet, but crashed into it instead. Stupid.
I didnt go out to study with Fris. Reason being, aku malas. wahaha. And he has more hw to do, and he's going jamming later in the evening. Oh well. Busy people. Ahakz!
So i guess todays schedule goes by two words - Study & Internet. Haha. I sound like a pathetic person with no friends. Cuz all my frens are going out to watch Spiderman, which ive already watched. waha. Funnily though, i dun loike the movie much. That makes me a weirdo, cuz evrione seems to love it. Oh well. Wanna noe the ending? (heheheh)
Ok this is what happened..
Haha ok i wun tell u, cuz ud probably slaughter me if u haven catch the movie yet. Yeah, so have fun spending ur hard earned cash on this movie. (",)
Hazz - Erm ok. Was that sarcastic or wat? hhaha. But thank you, if u really meant what u said.
Faris - I did toy with that idea, den i realised dat i'll have to look at your face 24 hrs a day then the usual 23 hrs. Wahahahaha! And the fact that i dun have your photo. Duh!~
Diana - Yup2! So how's ur brother? Better?
Love,
Wats so great about spiderman?
If i had bet 100 bucks for each match in Euro, i'd be bankrupt.
Noooo. I cant beleive Greece won. C.Ronaldo was like crying so much i juz feel like hugging and comfortin him. Oh u poor dear. But he does look cute crying. Hehe. Haiz. Oh and that farni idiot who ran across the field was lame. Wat the hell was he trying to prove? He made my Portugal Players lose concentration. Gawd. aaah. AND he wasnt even naked. AND he wasnt even funny. Tried to stick on the goalnet, but crashed into it instead. Stupid.
I didnt go out to study with Fris. Reason being, aku malas. wahaha. And he has more hw to do, and he's going jamming later in the evening. Oh well. Busy people. Ahakz!
So i guess todays schedule goes by two words - Study & Internet. Haha. I sound like a pathetic person with no friends. Cuz all my frens are going out to watch Spiderman, which ive already watched. waha. Funnily though, i dun loike the movie much. That makes me a weirdo, cuz evrione seems to love it. Oh well. Wanna noe the ending? (heheheh)
Ok this is what happened..
Haha ok i wun tell u, cuz ud probably slaughter me if u haven catch the movie yet. Yeah, so have fun spending ur hard earned cash on this movie. (",)
Hazz - Erm ok. Was that sarcastic or wat? hhaha. But thank you, if u really meant what u said.
Faris - I did toy with that idea, den i realised dat i'll have to look at your face 24 hrs a day then the usual 23 hrs. Wahahahaha! And the fact that i dun have your photo. Duh!~
Diana - Yup2! So how's ur brother? Better?
Love,
Wats so great about spiderman?
Peace be upon you.
Yay! got myself a new layout as i was sick of the old one. Anyway, supposed to be watching portugal and greece, but i cant seem to concentrate. Haha! Havent made up my mind whether anot i shud go Jp Coffeebean to study with Fris. Hmm..
I think im addicted to blogging. Dammit.
Love,
Portugal will win! woo!
Yay! got myself a new layout as i was sick of the old one. Anyway, supposed to be watching portugal and greece, but i cant seem to concentrate. Haha! Havent made up my mind whether anot i shud go Jp Coffeebean to study with Fris. Hmm..
I think im addicted to blogging. Dammit.
Love,
Portugal will win! woo!
Saturday, July 03, 2004
Peace be upon you
Today's just wooohoooooooooooooooooooo!!!!
Heh. I went out with a great fren of mine.
I saw my ex. (boohoo)
With another prettier girl. (Boohoohoo)
Den tons of ppl saw me n my fren. (Gawd)
We talked alot bout alot of stuff. (yay)
Thanks fren for treating me to lunch. (Grins)
Hehe.
Love,
Just lil old me grinning away
Today's just wooohoooooooooooooooooooo!!!!
Heh. I went out with a great fren of mine.
I saw my ex. (boohoo)
With another prettier girl. (Boohoohoo)
Den tons of ppl saw me n my fren. (Gawd)
We talked alot bout alot of stuff. (yay)
Thanks fren for treating me to lunch. (Grins)
Hehe.
Love,
Just lil old me grinning away
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