Peace be upon you.

I am personally in a bad mood today.

Reason being my mom has now decided for me, that i should be donning the tudung everytime i step out of my house. Yes, i know, this shouldnt be a big issue, but the problem here, is that i am not ready to be a full time tudung wearer.

I, for once, do not wear the tudung only when i am going off to study at the McDonalds/CC which is a 5min walk from my home. I find it kind of troublesome, you see. but i do wear the tudung whenever im going somewhere further then that. I have already made up my mind to wear the tudung fulltime the moment i touch the age of 17.

But, nooo. My mom has to be the one who chisels out my lifestory for me. Yeah, i know im being evil here, cuz all of you will have this voice in your head saying "But Fad, your mother is doing this for your own good what. Dapat pahale, takde dose. Kan bagus tu?"

BUT i am not ready!! I mean, i leave the house, walk for 5 mins with less then 10 people seeing me and i enter the room and study quietly being unnoticed by anyone. bah. I am making myself as a bad child, and a bad muslim, but... Haish. Rebel.

I mean, donning the tudung should be a personal responsibility right? Yes, it is wajib to do so in Islam, but one should only wear it when one is ready to accept the responsibility. Why wear it when you wear just to please your mom? Wear it when you are ikhlas.

BAH. i am making a mountain out of a molehill. Ignore the above banterings.

Mood swings aside, i am like so sick. 2 days ago, i told Is "Eh my whole family sick you know! Only I'm not. You know why? Cuz im strong!" (accompanied with the bodybuilder pose). See? The fact that i was showing off made God give me a taste of my own medicine. Boohoo. Now my nose is like a tap refusing to be closed, and my throat itches like hell. Padan muke kau Fad.

Oh guys check out this website. Its buy a guy who goes by the nick name of LoCase and his friend, Tech. Local graff artists i dare say. Just look at the Nike shoes he designed! (check the previous entry to check out one i personally loike, the BubbleCase) Wooh sweet. If only i can grab my hands on them. Or better, get him to draw on Chucks. hhaha.

I feel another bout of fever coming up.

Love,
Nur Fadhilah Wahid.