Sunday, April 03, 2005

"What do you want in life, Fadhilah?"


That was the question imposed on me by an online friend of mine yesterday night. I sat there stoning in front of the computer, my 56kb/s brain conjuring all sorts of goals and dreams in which they were all mashed up together like scrambled eggs.

And then i realised, i have no plans in life! Oh geesh. Thats horrible isnt it? My motto for now is to live one day at a time, which is bad, cuz i suddenly remembered what my teachers always tell me

"Failing to plan = planning to fail!"


Whilst bathing (and singing squawking to My Boy Lollipop) in the shower at 6:45am this morning, it suddenly struck me that i am seventeen years old. SEVENTEEN.(ok lah 16 since its not yet my birthday, but well.. you get the idea) That's so.. old. Next year i'll be 18 and in 3 short years, i'll be touching the big 20!!

Aiyoyoyoyo. I MUST plan. But where do i begin? Ah ok. I shall start sketching a rough outlook on the goals (education-wise) i want to achieve.

Goals to achieve.


For my JC2 Promos this year: Get (at least) Bs in MalayA, MathsAO and GP, and (at least) Cs in Econs and Hist.

For my A Levels next year: Get (at least) As in MalayA, MathsAO and GP, and (at least) Bs in Econs and Hist.

Option A
For university education: Get a degree in Malay Studies, Psychology or Social Work.

Option B
For MOE teaching course: Learn to teach the Malay Language. Will proceed to get a degree, and teach at a Higher Level Institution, meaning Junior Colleges or Unis (cheh! haha).

Ok so i have my education goals listed out. Now i need a plan on the how-to(s).

Means of achieving them goals:


Consistent revision.
Nyeah nyeah. I know that sounds cliched, but yeah. For the past 17 years in my life, i somehow manage to scrape through with not-so-bad results with non-consistent revision.

For example, for my PSLE, i only studied 2 weeks before the papers, and somehow managed to get an aggregate score of 256. Then, for my OLevels, i really put in an effort to study only after getting an incorrigible prelims L1R5 of 20points. So after studying for 3 months, i managed to pull my score down to 10points (WITH 4 bonus points).

The results are still good, but if i compare the 256 score to the 10pts, it shows that i have not achieved my projected L1R5. Therefore, if i dont start doing my consistent revision, my A Level results WILL be worse then my OLevel results.

Therefore, the other half has suggested that we study together, since he knows i will slack if i have no motivation. I have discussed with my mother and him, and its now confirmed that every Sunday i will be studying with him from 11am all the way to around 5pm (starting from today). So all you pipsqueaks please do NOT tempt me to go out on Sundays orkay? hahah.

Hand up tutorials and assignments.
Another cliched phrase, but i guess its true. Even if i have already understood the lectures, if I dont hand in whatever assignment bestowed upon me, it just reflects negatively on my attitude. In the teacher's mind, she'd be saying;

"Stupid kid. Never hand in my work. Waste the paper and ink only. Stupid kid. I bet she doesnt understand all my lectures, sitting down there talking and lauging with her friends. Stupid (malay) kid. Doesnt deserve free education. BAH!


Which of course, is rather undesirable as we all know that we need

The teacher's blessings.
Laugh all you want, but i believe that if a teacher likes you (not in a teacher's pet kinda way nor the Siva (inside joke) kind of way), it will be easier for you to study.

For example, student A is naughty and doesnt hand in work on time ALWAYS. She doesnt know how to solve a question. She hops along to the teacher. The teacher senses the approaching doom, and an immense heartpain is felt in her heart (doh!). As the student asks for an explanation, the teacher puts on her "professional" face, but she explains the explanation with much grudgery thus making the explanation a less satisfactory one.

Student B, however is nice, does her work, and always greets the teacher. So went she in turn, hops along to ask for an explanation, the teacher gladly smiles at her and explains the answer in full detail, as the teacher likes working with her.

What the teacher gives is what you will receive. A person tends to give more to a person he/she likes. Therefore, you will need a teacher's blessing in order to succeed.

Time management.
Padappapapada! I guess we all see this phrase in all "HOW TO SUCCEED IN LIFE" books. Basically, we can all play hard, but at the same time, study hard too. We will need time for our friends (aka social circle) but at the same time, we need to give time for ourselves too. Balance is the keyword here.

As for me, my days all end around 6pm. If i have no tutorials/assignments to complete, i will meet the other half after school at least twice on a weekday (IF he agrees to that, that is).

Saturdays will be spent outside, either with friends, family, or him.

Sundays will be the full-on revision days, like i have mentioned earlier.

As for myself, i will set aside an hour a day (after i finish all my work) on the computer, blogging and bloghopping.

Parents' blessings.
If im respectful towards my parents, and create a better bond with them, they'll tend to like me more (their love is already unlimited.waaahaha). Being liked has its good points. For example, more pocket money, more freedom to study outside with friends, and most importantly, more DOA from them. They say

Doa' ibu itulah yang selalu dimakbulkan.


Which means, a mother's prayers are the ones which matters most. So yeah, i guess thats self-explanatory.

God's blessings.
For people who believe in God and Qada' and Qadar (destiny), having God's blessing is the ultimate safe way (but not guaranteed) to succeed in life. Praying 5 times (insyaAllah) a day will lead to constant DOA for myself. Another self-explanatory topic. (Actually im getting lazier to type. heeehee)

Well, thats it.


Hmmm. I guess thats all that i can think of now. If my mind conjoures somthing up later, i shall blog about it. Now to regular daily events post:

Yesterday, i was supposed to go out with Claire and Ashrithaa, but it was cancelled, due to the fact that my mom didnt agree to it, and Ashrithaa had a family meeting going on. So i moped around the house, grudgingly completing housework like sweeping/vacumming/mopping the floor of the whole house, cleaning the toilet, washing the dishes (GOD i sound like maid). At the end of it all, i tried my luck again, complete with dishevelled hair, doe-eyes, innocent facial expression tinted with desperation

"Mommy can i please pleASE PLEASE go out? The past week ive not been going out much what..."


She looked at me and grunted a yes, much to my joy. I was given the time frame of after Asar to before Isyak, but upon realising i had my period, i could come back before 9. Yayness! Wanted to call Claire and Ash, but realised Ash cant go out. So, i called the other half.

We went to Bugis to do his phone deal, and then proceeded to Sungei Road. Funny lah dat place! The things they sell there. NONSENSE! From brown dirty shoes to off-white lingerie, to frayed wires, to latest handphone models! hahaha. Ok ok it was my first time there, so pardon my hype. I was practically laughing all the way whilst walking.

And then we visited this ahpek sitting at the longkang, and he had a showcase of handphones in front of him. By Ah Pek, i mean AhPek, complete with white singlets, bermuda shorts, no slippers, huge specs on his nose rim, dishevelled hair. By handphones, i dont mean the kukufied big black handphone of the olden days, but the latest models, Nokia 6630, O2 mini etc. So im like, yeah, maybe this kuku bird just sell, but doesnt know anything about the phones.

Am i wrong or am i WRONG!


hahaha. This Ang Moh wanted to buy the O2 mini, and the Ah Pek started sprouting technological stuff about the handphone that even the other half doesnt know! Phwoar! haha. He said stuff like (of course in a more ahpekish fashion)

"I sell you at 300. With the 256mb card. Without the 256mb card its 280 but it can still work, cuz there's internal memory. The battery now flat, so i must go home and charge for you first. Yes, i know i gave you the firewire cable, but in order for you to charge using firewire, you will need at least a little power left in the battery. Warranty card? O2 where got give warranty card. Its all online. You go online and check. Still got warranty. bla bla bla bla."


hahahhaha. Looks sure can be deceiving ey?