Monday, September 13, 2004

Peace be upon you.

I know, this song is totally not me. But its for a special occasion. haha!

From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistry we felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a year we spent together
How it's been, whatwe went through
Although we've had ourlittle ups and downs
We've still pulled through

Baby girl you're my world my everything
I wanna lace you with diamonds and every ring
Give you everything youdream and fantasize
Cause you can tell me that you love me
Looking in my eyes
You keep it real with me,I keep it real with you
You keep on loving me,I’ll keep on loving you
Keep doing what you do,I feel your whole aura
And I can't wait to hook up again tomorrow baby - what

[Chorus]
My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
Y ou'll always be my baby boy.

Everytime I look at you,
I can't believeI’ve found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that I spend with you
You make me believe I have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine

Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling this was meant to be
Without you I'd be lost, I need you next to me
Preferably in the house fullof luxuries and little kids
From day one I was sprung, knew you was gonna be one
Cause my heart spoke for the very first time in a long while
And every time you smile, I can see us walking up the aisle with you carrying my child
C’mon

[Chorus]
My love for you will never end
You'll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps on passing by
You'll always be my baby boy

If you were to go, I don't know
You're the only one who sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes my heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause you're my, my sweet love

Ever since the first time, that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you were gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,when you're not by my side
You're the only girl that's on my mindI never knew a love like this,
a love so strong
A vision so picture perfect it could never be wrong
Along the way, you’re gonna see you belong with Jay
I might have to marry you one day baby eh..

Hehehe.

Love
Him.
Peace be upon you.

I am the most Contented and Happy girl in the whole wide world after what happened yesterday. Haha. Bleah. Its kinda personal though, so i'm sorry ya guys? haha. But hell with it. im Smiling and i cant stop. And trust me, that is a rare occurance. Ahakz.

Oh well. Other then that, my physics prac went quite smoothly i guess. In comparison to my Chem prac. Gosh. Seems like i got almost all answers right except for the last part, in which ive never come across in my whole sec 4 life. Upon asking ma mates, they said "Orh. Simmy haven teach uh.". Wat the? How can he have forgotten to teach? eeesh. Must get more clarification soon. Oh Simmy is my Physics teacher btw. No, his name is not Simmy. Its Mr Sim. But simmy's cuter. So its Mr Simmmyyyy. Haha.

Yeah yeah im in a helluva good mood. Dun blame me.

Oh yeah, made my new Ez-link upon losing the old one. Did not bring a new pic so i was stuck with my promary school pic in which i look like so hangus and who's frigging nerdish and tomboyish. BLEAH. I look so horrible. Gurggle. Pukes. No, i am NOT exaggeratting. I shall post that pic up one day and let you see for yourself.

No wait, thats not a good idea. Cuz i'll have to get censorship notice from the govt. It will be rated R-21 and therefore non of you can see it anyway. So yeah, no pics. Haha.

My best fren accompanied me to Buena Vista just now, and then i sent her home to Woodlands. We were sitting at the interchange waiting for MY train (she was waiting for my train to leave before she departed) and catching up on old times. So we chat and chat and chat and i counted 6 or 7 trains passing by. Haha! So at last she forced me to board a train and i had to pay 2 bucks cuz i overstayed. Heesh. But who cares? I got to talk to her like nobody's business. I miss her so so much. :)

No papers scheduled for tomorrow and wed, so i guess i'll be mugging at home or at GekPoh's Mcs by myself or try to get some kakis to teman. Haha. Sian you know study alone.

Sooo. i gotta go then. heeeee.

Love
My dearie.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Peace be upon you

Thursday.

This was the intended schedule for the sleepover:

  • 10 - 12 : Study
  • 12 - 2.30 : Twelfth Night movie
  • 2:30 - Eternity : more study!

This, is what we ended up doing:

  • 10 - `1030 : Singapore Idol's results.
  • 1030 - 11 : MTV
  • 11 - 12 : Study
  • 12 - 2 : MIRC sex channel. (elaborating later on)
  • 2 - 2.30 : Twelfth Night movie
  • 3 - 5.30 : Twelfth Night got boring, so we watched Texas Cnainsaw Massacre.
  • 5.30 - 7 : Study.
  • 7 - 8 : Sleep.
  • 8 - 12 : Study.

Haha! So i went home at 12pm. And no, we didnt skinny dip. :( One of us had her time of the month.

Ok ok, im getting to the sex channel bit. One particular conversation i can still remember. okok. I remembered quite a few.

There was this one guy. who was an indian. So we said that I (we) was a Sri Lankan maid and that my Sir and Mdm had gone for a holiday so i can go online. Then I made that indian guy my confidante by saying that Sir had done some sex stuff with me. The Indian guy started to comfort me. Den i said i was stupid and had no money to study blabla. The indian guy actually started to tell us about Sinda (The indian's version of Mendaki) and stuff. haha!

Then there was this other guy. His nick was ^Jack. So we introduced ouselves as Jill. Then i started to sing the nursery rhyme and he joined in. Then i talked about Jack and Jill chips and we spent an hour talking about chips. haha!

Anyway, go watch Texas Chainsaw massacre! I practically said a million F words while i was screaming. And mind you, its 3 am in the morning. haha!

Friday.

I spent 13 hours sleeping. Hahahahhahaha.

Today.

Am feeling so awake right now. 13 hours of sleep eh! haha. Niway, chatting online with Ikah darling. I am so missing her right now. Luv u too ikah. *muacks*.

Love, Fad is missing u.


Thursday, September 09, 2004

Peace be upon you.

Wednesday.

Aaah. Horrors of horrors. I saw the toyol gang again. Ee. Dun tell me its fate? haha.

Today.

My stomach's grumbling again. Hungry, hungry, Can't wait for Maghrib to arrive. Ahakz. Oh well, im heading of for my first ever sleepover at a friend's house. Yeeha. Swimming pool, air con, crap talks! here i come!

Shit.

Ive gotta concentrate. Its supposed to be a study night anyway. Bleah! Ok gonna make a mental check on what im supposed to bring,

  • One big tumbler of Nescafe
  • Chips chips and more chips
  • My trusty campbell soup
  • Cds to listen to
  • Extra shirts and shorts in case we want to go for a midnight swim to freshen up
  • Hair lotion
  • Undergarments (Doh)
  • Toothbrush
  • Discman! Cant live without it.

Ok thats it. Oh no.

  • BoOks.

Haha. Oh well. Got to go then.

Love, fuddy!

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Peace be upon you.

A mat just asked for my number today.
Im not being a show-off.
Cuz the mat is 15 years old.
Eew.
And his friend who was sent to ask for my number
looks like a...


Toyol.


HHaha. A toyol is a small botak genie.
Eew.
Anyway, my swollen eyes have gone down a lil.
Feel much2 better.
Gonna get studying in 30 mins.
Oh ya.
DOWNLOAD SOUTHPARK.
Yeeha.

Love,
Fuddy's disgusted!
Peace be upon you.

Yawn.

I smell of early morning breath and a good nights sleep.
Yeeha. Dats right. Im still in my un-bathed state.
Hehe. My eyes are as red as ever.
Like.. apples? haha.
Oh well.
Me and my improper contacts usage.
Serves me right. Haish.
Hope it doesnt develop fungi like my friend's eyes.
He had to be hospitalized to get an operation.
Scaaary.
Eesh. Now my mom bans me from further use of contacts.
Die die.

Who'se gonna fall in love with me now?
wahhaa.
Me and love.
Desperate sia.

No lah. Just been so long since ive got a guy.
You know, like one day you feel all alone.
And keep wishing the good old days were back.
Where you keep calling one another.
And your bills stack up.
And everyday after school you go out together.
And look into each others eyes.
Make imposibble promises to be true.
And at last break up.
Haha.
Gosh how i miss the good old days.
Monkey love i call it. Or Cinta Monyet?
Im sure everyone had gone through that phase before.
Haha.
Oh well.

I guess im more matured right now.
Once bitten twice shy.
Gotta be extra careful in choosing a partner.
BLEAH!

So yeah.
Plan to stay at home the whole day and study.
Ive suddenly found comfort in studying.
Gosh.
Why does the feeling arrive so late?
If only i feel this way at the beginning of the year.
Would have got 12 points for my L1R5.
But now?
Too late i guess.
Ahh nooo.
I cant fail my prelims.
Nu'uh. Dun wanna disappoint my mommy and daddy,
They love me so much and put all their hopes on me.
MUST.
MUST get into a good Jc.
Insyallah.

Oh lis.
Sometimes things dun go as you wish.
Inilah lumrah kehidupan.
You may be up today,
and down the next.
God is fair and almighty.
He will give you your fair share of ups and downs.
Have faith in Him.
In life.
In yourself.

This next poem is dedicated to you, and also anyone out there who is feeling down and out.
Btw, its not written by me.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is strange, it will twist and turn,
As all of us will someday learn.
And many a person turns about,
When they might have won, had they stuck it out.

Don't give up, though the pace seems slow.
You may succeed with another blow.
Often strugglers have given up,
When you might have captured the victor's cup,
And you learned too late when the night came down,
How close you were to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the cloud of doubt.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit!

Love,
Fuddy must make her parents proud!

Monday, September 06, 2004

Peace be upon you.

Yay. Loads to blog about, so i shall disect this entry into different colors under different subheadings. wahha. Have i told you im a neat freak?

Why the absence of daily updates?

Thats becoz ive been to Johor and Tampines the past two days! wahha. Gosh. You guys should seriously visit Johor now and get the laugh of your life. The Minah Malaysias are all wearing tapered! And all the Mats there seemed to be punks~ Eew. Eew. Me and my cuzzies had fun jeering at them. Bleurgh. *pukes* Well, my family and hers went there to make our Hari Raya clothes etc. So we went to this shop named Lagenda and spent 2 hours there. Guess the total amount of clothes done and money spent? 11 clothing items and 2ooo+ ringgit. Gosh. And i thought my mom and her mom is broke.

Angsana has like the most raddest converse shoes ever! High cuts, low cuts blah blah. I have to go there again one day, this time with money of course. Bleah. Hate being broke. So we entered the skate/hiphop shops. The Mat Malaysia there were ooooh so cute, with their old skool hairdos and emo dressing. But bleah, there's this silent rule that Singaporean gals shudnt fall for Malaysian guys. Haha! Sssh. Its a silent rule.

So we took the trip back home in my Uncle's jeep. The uncle who owns a mega humongous crane company. So his soooo cuuuuttteee grandson, who has like blue eyes and brown hair and skin to die for (His father is an angmoh), whipped out his gameboy advance and kept me buzy throughout the whole journey. The jeep was like woooh. It had a tv and the best sound system ever! Ah. Again, i hate rich people.

Oh yeah, the uncle pulled me in for a business venture. Anyone know any bikers out there? I have two genuine Harley Davidson boots to sell off. 200 bucks, negotiable. Spread the word yeah? Will fit a size 7 ot 8 or 9. Its knee high, btw.

The road to Minahism,

Haha. Hanging out with my couzzie's Minah frens has thought me how to be a true blue Minah.
The rules are simple.

1) If someone "sueets" you, never turn until they call out your name.
2) Any guy with a motorbike is a must have,
3) You muz rejoice when you turn 18, as now you can do your illegal stuff legally. (For example, smoking and clubbing)
4) Use words like "sial" and "kimek" at least once in a minute.
5) Discuss who you last shagged and who you want to shag next.
6) Say hi to any guy that you know along the way.
7) Bring the ex up at least 5 times in a conversation.
8) If you see an old mate, say him to him/her as if you want to pick up a fight.
9) Shelters are called "pondoks" and that is your second home.
10) Complain about your high hp bill, but at the same time tell the whole world how high it is and compare whose is higher.
11) Discuss about your latest "phheeww" incident with the police.

Waha. I may add some more when im free.

Ive unlocked it!

Unlock what you may ask? Well, ive always wondered why the Mats always say "Tak sabar berenang", which means "If you're impatient, swim". So yesterday my couzin was telling me that the Mats got it from the old P.Ramlee movie, where the actors were impatient in getting into a boat. One of them then said "Tak sabar berenang". Oh so now we know that Mats watch P.Ramlee. haha.

Am i heartbroken?

Not now im not. He has reassured me about his feelings, and yeah, i dont know. But like i told you, im pathetic in handling my feelings. Oh well. What i know , now, im in love with you, Is. Try not to disappoint me ya?Haha.

Conclusion.

Im a happy contented girl,

after buying a pirated HIM and JET cd.

after spending 2 days with my dearest cousin.

after what he told me.

Now.

BACK TO STUDYING.

Love,
Fad's Happy!





Friday, September 03, 2004

Peace be upon you.

Rajahhh.
Claireee.
Im so sorry.
I really really can't ignore him as much as i try to.

I can't forget him.
I can't ignore his sms's.
I wait impatiently for our next meeting.
I can remember his smile, his laughter and his lameness.

I know he did me injustice.
But.
I really can't forget him.

BAH

Im such a sucker when it comes to feelings.
I'm good at advising others,
but my own love life?

Pathetic.

Just plain pathetic.

Eeeeesh.

GERAAAAAAAM.

Love,
Emoness creeping into my soul yet again.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Peace be upon you.

Chatting online with my best friend right now.

Atikah Bte Saad.

I miss her so much.

Ikah, if you're reading this,

I miss you so frigging much,

Much much more then you are missing me.

Love,
I wanna cry.
Peace be upon you

Bleah!
No pink!

Happy Teachers Day to all teachers!
Wee~

Yesterday was a great day, having a 3/4 day at school. Our performance went well, except for the fact that i almost slipped on the floor like 5 times due to my stupid socks. Luckily, managed to get a grip and safe myself from embarrasment. hah. The Malay guys did.. erm. ok. The performance on stage (Marigold) had a vocalist who sang rather out of tune, and to make it worse, the mic that he/she was singing into had the loudest volume. So when he/she uttered the first "yoouu~" (they sang "that thing you do"), everyone's faces turned from hopefuls to disappointment. Heh. Later on at the mini-stage, music etc was a-ok, but the vocalist couldnt be heard at all. Not his fault, it was the mike's fault. Ahakz. His face was contorted into a mess, seeing he was practically using all his vocal chords trying to be heard. Sorry, Min. But i guess you did ok. Went off after 1 number, cuz a gig's no fun without vocals.












Rajah & Claire.

Went off with Rajah to Claire's house. The first thing that greeted me at her front gate - Michi. Dun get me wrong, but Michi is a dog. Hah. Got the shock of my life. So I hid behind Rajah while Mani, who is Claire's maid, locked the dogs (there are two, Michi, who is small and hairy, and Prince, who is much much much bigger) in the room upstairs. Then i ran up the stairs to the fourth floor (yes, fourth) and entered Claire's room.

Ah! Im in love with her room. Surprise, surprise. After 2 years of being close friends with her, this is the first time ive been to her house. Hah. One wall was fully covered with posters and she has a queen sized trampoliny bed and her room is like twice the size of my room! Gosh. Hate rich people. Bah! Haha.

We looked through photo albums and laughed at how weird and fat we used to be. Ok, how fat Rajah used to be. Michelle later joined us at around 3 pm.

Whilst everyone ate 1 bowl of maggi, i ate TWO. wahaha. And you wonder how come i am still as skinny as ever. High metabolism rate! Weee. Go get your high metabolism! 3 for 10 dollars!

So we studied till 7 (altho i slept for 1 hour). Then the crapping began.

Rajah got hold of my stud belts and stud wristbands and began calling herself rocker. She refused to answer us if we did not call her name beginning with a "Rocker". So she sang her version of "Rock-a-bye-baby" (is that how you spell it? hah). When Claire went out, Me, Rajah and Michelle took turns jumping on ber punkrocker style. She practically killed us when she found out. Haha. Then me and Michelle played twister using the poster on Claire's wall. Heh. We managed to tear erm. 3 posters? Haha. Sorry Claire.

Later on, Claire told me something about comparing the temperature in the room (it was freezing) and the one outside. I said "You dogs are outside, goondu", but she denied, promising that the dogs are safely locked in the room. So i placed myself infront of the door while she opened it. Then michi's head popped in. I screamed like hell and on instinct, pushed the door close, almost crushing Michi's head. Gosh. Sorry, Claire. I really didnt mean it. Heh.

At 8 we headed by the poolside and studied at the shelter. Gals treated me to 5 slices of pizza from Pizza hut! woohoo. Its great having rich friends. (just contradicted myself. haha). At 10, me and Rajah went home, while Michelle stayed overnight. Last heard they studied till 6 frigging am! While I conveniently slept from 12 to 10. Hahaha.

How to pass Prelims i ask you?

Bleah!

Replay to tags:

Lizzy: Haish. Yeah bloody prelims. Im so tired lizzy dearie! Oh and say hi to hotboi for me ya? He's such a doll.

eFa: Tsk3. Pemalash eh. God scold! haha. Aight2 link me anitime, just as long as you remember to do it. :)

HuLkKimz: *prot* *splash* wahahahha.

Love,
Fuddy's gonna study.